Current Residence: Australia
Favourite style of art: Traditional
Personal Quote: "Everything has a gift", "dreams are experiences"
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As I would believe we (humanity) are all artists and have highly imaginative minds. We are quite intelligent in deceiving ourselves of our own truth through amazing fantasies and/or stories. This defense mechanism helps in aiding us to gently treat the wounds of past experiences that become embedded in our spirit, rather than having the traumatic effect of facing them all at once and causing a split in the psych.
For many years now I have been trying to heal the wounds of old and have been trying to discover what the true self really is. I looked for it in others and the earth through a great deal of empathy and could understand what a persons suffering was, but I had already learnt this, what and who was I? What did I need to save myself from? After realising I was viewing the world through my own personal mirror I slowly sifted away my lies in the stories that I attached to myself. It was finally time to be practical.
Previously I had used the art of meditation for escapism which had worked for a while but the messages started to get bigger and my body was starting to manifest many problems. I looked for another solution. After discovering that I needed to ground my spirit and live more in the moment, I saw myself. I saw how much of myself I running away from. I saw how I constantly felt responsible for everyone's pain but how much empathy was I giving myself? How much was I saving others and distracting myself from saving me? My inner child wept with pain and I felt like I was huge bully. "Why did you leave me?" She asked. At first I thought it was me living some life before this one and was angry and sad with an old lover. I was trying to ignore the truth, I was resisting the change to come and the love I needed to give myself. I then realised it was me. My god like love returned and apologised but reassured it was a necessary process to accomplish an understanding oneself. How could I ever know who I was if I never left? How could I know how to love myself if I always had. As it has been said we cannot know love without hate, healing without pain, hope without loss or forgiveness without betrayal etc.
Now slowly day by day I am making an effort to be true to myself. Its time to carve my own path instead of following others, to have courage to be honest with myself and other people. To respect myself so I can heal and share with the world in a positive and loving manner.
Peace xxx